Saturday, December 17, 2005

Excerpts from a Life

These are excerpts from my journal as a teenager. I had a crush on a boy called Chevy and I lost weight to in order to gain his attention.

July 19, 1975
Mom's always bugging me about my eating. I'm so mad!! Too skinny. (edited version)
Please God-I don't know.

July 23, 1975
I'm doing new exercises and keeping track of calories. I don't know if I should or not, its quite frustrating!!
Its one of those times when I'm conscious of swallowing my saliva!

August 9, 1975
I read a couple of stories about fat girls becoming thin and getting the guy of their dreams. In both of them, the guy was conceited. I wish I would get my guy already and I bet he won't be conceited.
I stopped exercising because of my sickness.
Rlynne (my sister) told Mango that Chevy must like me. Oh please, make him do something. I want him so much.

August 10, 1975
Throat is sorta sore or somethin'. Did exercises again. I wish I was well so I could go outside and walk around.

August 11, 1975
Mango came over in afternoon. We just talked and listened to the radio. Mango seems as if she's really sure of Chevy liking me.
Eating about 1500 calories a day. I should reach my goal of 115 lbs pretty soon. I hope my figure is all in shape for school. I want a 24" waist!


J. Andrew Lockhart said...

having 2 daughters, should I be ready for this kind of behavior? are all girls this way? :>

Barbara said...

Well, we know Mango is still in your life....

Carol said...

J. Andrew,
I hope not (I have two daughters as well) but I think this might be semi-normal. Keep your eyes open!


Trinity13 said...

How much did you end up losing?

Michele sent me!!!

Rhiannon said...

Did you have anorexia nervosa Carol?

Carol said...

Keep on reading, Rhiannon.

Rhiannon said...

Okay I will Carol..