Tuesday, May 24, 2005
A co-worker wondered what I do all day since I only work two shifts. I didn't feel like elaborating. Her question made me doubt my productivity as all I really want to do is write. Perhaps I have been overindulging.
Work is busy after a long weekend.
I feel like I should be always positive but I am not. Sometimes I just want to isolate.
The words that hurt the most are when I tell myself, "I am not good enough."
The reality is I am obsessed with writing. The good part about this is that it is helping me. I am still getting the essentials done. My family is not complaining.
Most people are used to running at full speed. Stress is dangerous to our minds and bodies. Not everyone can understand the people that prefer to live a de- stressed life.
The lab is a busy place. I want to be a good team player and not take conflicts personally.
I can not be positive all the time. There might be people who can but I have to accept where I am right now.
I am good enough!
"I have a wonderful life", I say as a bell tinkles.